KATIE

"You must be the new girl" I said warmly as I stared into the bluest eyes I had ever seen. She smiled and damn if she wasn't the Cheshire cat. I like her fresh sparkliness immediately. I was assigned the job to train her in the ways of Hobies. She didn't stay a bus person long with me as her lobbyist. I always tipped her fat and helped her when I could. One day she asked me to coffee after shift.
Katie had been Magna Cum Laude and phi beta kappa at Occidental ( Occey ) college. It was an all girls college in Los Angeles. She had created her own major and upon graduation immediately signed up to dance on a cruz ship in the Caribbean. She had a fantastic dancer body; Beautiful and alive, I discovered on one of our several trips to the beach as it was mid-summer. I remember her powerful looking Sacrum.
At the outdoor cafe where we sat that day proved to be the beginning of a long friendship that served me well. I loved her happy life force and her intelligence. Her boy friend at the time was all absorbed in pre-med. She was new to Santa Cruz and it was a bitchen summer and just wanted to have fun. Always looking for a person to do fun things with( libra ) we were a great match as friends.
I took her swimming in the kelp beds, and sunning on some of my favorite beaches. We ate at interesting places, went to work and work parties, went to movies, yoga. Above all we talked like kids. I was into body work and was looking to get into massage school possibly. She had powerful opinions and was from a heavy feminist background as was I.
She was from a family of therapists and had what I mistook for an introspective tendency. It was more a mental review of emotions and actions, a reflection, which is different as it is confined to the mind. An introspective capacity can get confused with the tendency, almost compulsion to process and over process. I've seen people create process to avoid dealing with an authentic process trying to happen. An intuitive and developed introspective capacity is a psychic capacity and has depth and truth in it. It steps below the mind and stands behind observing, not only the mind but all facets of the this complex being.
Katie could hold her own in a conversation and offered me new perspectives on alot of topics. And I loved these new perspectives and sure needed them.
We were kids just having a load of fun. About a month into our endless fun having I could feel the energy between us getting a sweet and a definite emotional flavor to it. At work a friend of mine said after he looked at the schedule at work: " Fuck, I work with you and Katie. You two are boring, You flirt the whole shift." He was right. After work that night I told Katie that I was lovin her company but that we should cool it as I could feel where it was going. She said: "But I don't want it to stop." What could I say I sure didn't want that either. I let it ride.
I remember one night I had just finished my evening meditation in my new apartment. All was candle light and incense and a knock rolled across my door. Katia came in kind of wild eyed and wanted to walk out to light house field at Steamer Lane and watch an electrical storm out at sea. It was raining intermittently, the wind was all storm gusts. I loved the spur of the nocturnal moment visit by her.
She felt things begin to heat up between us and mentioned to me what a first kiss might be like. I resisted the topic, which seemed to make her more forward. One day at the end of shift as we were doing our closing work, she came into the mens restroom that I was cleaning. She locked the door and slid down to a sitting position with her face in her hands frustrated. I was clue less and kept cleaning.
She hugged me and didn't let go. After my nose traced a pattern around her neck and ears a few times we shared a sweet soft kiss.
Things heated up and we talked about them as they did. One night we had been out and Katie dropped me off at the center as I was late for center meditation,I leaned into hug her and she turned to kiss me and we just macked! It was a full on Kundalini fire passion kiss. I was a little disoriented as I got out of the car and and as I walked into the cozy meditation room. A few friends had come down from San Francisco, I felt so exposed; I was a ball of fire, I felt like I stood out a mile.
Katie said she went to the beach and cried intensely as she was moved.